Having been pounding over some similar issues these few weeks during my break.
I find that i am getting more and more tired each day and i just can't get sufficient rest.
It may not be physically i am tired but more of mentally tired.
Perhaps Singapore is just a very tensed place for me,
I need to find a place which have a slower pace for me to stop, take a look around and carry on walking on the path in my life.
I have been trying my very best in achieving the goals in my life and never have time for myself.
Maybe its time for me to actually have sometime for myself to relax and calm down my mind.
I will still carry on with Landscape Architecture, Music and Visual Arts,
But i need a break first.
Getting a Diploma is a must for me now before anything, but there are more oncoming plans ahead that will restrict me from taking a break.
People who had walked with me in my life before or even know stopped and ask me a similar question,
"Is this the path that you really wish to continue?"
Normally, i will just answer without a second thought, "Yes."
Landscape Architecture is what i had chosen for the rest of my life, and i never regret choosing it.
But when i sit down and think about it again, i get a whole new set of thinking.
Something that i cannot really put them into words.
I have lots of other interest in life as well, why didn't i pursue them as well?
I love Visual Arts when i am young i even went to the extend of teaching, but why i still choose Landscape Architecture?
I love music, i join the Concert Symphonic Band just because of it, but why not focusing it as my main priority?
I like photography, but why didn't i go into this?
All this questions kept on running through my head till today till the very moment when i am writing this entry.
Should i just put down whatever i am doing now and go for a break first?
Should i just leave my studies and fly to New Zealand, Australia or UK to have a break first?
But what am i going to do when i am back to Singapore?
I long to fly oversea to take a look around the world at how things are like over there,
having a whole new perspective view of life.
Till now, i am still unable to come up with a decision.
But i know, no matter what the final decision is still up to me to decide.
I believe i can find something that will enlighten me to find the way to continue my journey.
Labels: My Journey
